When I settled down a bit, I realized some valuable things.
1. I do have great friends in my life.
2. I am in the right place in my life.
3. I can take action to change things in my life.
and most importantly...
4. I have a great God.
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It's tough to experience the loneliness. But I absolutely believe that I need this time. When I'm involved in a relationship, I'm not able to be as objective. And for me--and I suspect, most others--relationships take alot of emotional energy.
I need time to mature emotionally. As I've expressed through other posts, I want to come to a relationship and be able to share my life. I don't want to come needing the person I'm in a relationship with to "fix" me, emotionally or otherwise.
I also realize that during this time of loneliness, I am acutely aware of God's presence. This is how I should live every day--conscious of Him. It is in this sanctuary of fear, loneliness and frustration that I experience His grace and mercy and love.
And from my sacred sanctuary comes an overwhelming, all-encompassing peace from the hand of God.
I need time to mature emotionally. As I've expressed through other posts, I want to come to a relationship and be able to share my life. I don't want to come needing the person I'm in a relationship with to "fix" me, emotionally or otherwise.
I also realize that during this time of loneliness, I am acutely aware of God's presence. This is how I should live every day--conscious of Him. It is in this sanctuary of fear, loneliness and frustration that I experience His grace and mercy and love.
And from my sacred sanctuary comes an overwhelming, all-encompassing peace from the hand of God.
1 comment:
I hope things are going well. Getting over people is never easy, even when you know you need to and you know it's the right thing. Sometimes your emotions just WILL NOT get in check and it is so frustrating. Keep on keeping on, haha.
JW
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